Epileptic Ramblings

I love romance.  Most of my relationshiops have been intense and fast.  The upside is you have these great memories of very strong feelings. The downside is they don’t last.  I guess the existentialist would say that its okay.  Stay in the moment, stay in the day.  And while I try to do just that, I have to admit I would like to get good at the long term aspect of dating.  And part of it is my fault in that I tend to just dive right into whomever I am seeing at the time.  I want that heavy, get lost in the other person feeling and I tend to not worry about common interests or future long term goals etc.  I want the intangibles, not the things that add up in some one’s day to day.  And while my perspective may be romantic, and I do love romance, I’m at an age now where maybe I need to chill a little more, not be so aggressive.  I hear how other people have 4 year relationships, 8 year relationships and I can’t figure out how the fuck they do it! (he said laughingly)  I’ve met some great women, had some intense moments.  But after these ten years of constant battle, I want more. I want an ally and finding that balance is difficult.  This is probably the first time in my life where I can empathize with others who feel down because they haven’t found someone for the long haul. I’m not down per se.  In fact I have been having fun meeting new people and exploring the area, but I would like something longer than 3 months.  Seizures are debilitating, but I can’t just let them ruin my life or else why did I fight the AVM and why do I keep going? There has to be a reason.  Until then I will listen to Summer Wind, Halo and Amber and stay in a romantic mood…I hope others do too.

I have never been much of a conspiracy guy.  However, I am starting to feel that the Tea Party is being paid by the Insurance Companies.  No one has bothered to discuss that fact.  Now they are going after congressman threatening their lives but it only seems to be coming from a very small group or sect.  The most militants of the neo-fascist party have objected to reform for ideological reasons that have no bearing but these Tea Party people are more than militant, they are insensitive, violent, and cruel, I dare say terrorist-like.  What happened this week was voted on by 62% of the electorate.  The majority of voters in this country wanted this and it is democratic and maintains competition a capitalist idea. I therefore am left to think of this as an inside job.  The insurance companies are billion dollar businesses that just lost their grip on the public.  I fear they are influencing these activities and maybe behind the whole dam thing.

“Power Corrupts, And absolute power corrupts absolutely”

– Lord Byron

Financial

http://www.nviro.com

I just read about a very interesting green company called N-Viro International.  They symbol is nvic.ob and is currently at 3.25.  Their process utilizes waste from coal plants and turns it into renewable soil and possible alternative fuel.  They just got a contract from Volusia County in Florida.  I also like the fact that they are based in Toledo, Ohio.  It is these types of ideas that will create American jobs for American companies and help reduce the damages of coal.  I will do more research on this stock because there are only 5 million shares outstanding! That is a tight float.

Today the Congress and President represented the American people.  The opposition has no real argument here by the way.  They love the term “Government Takeover”.  But in reality that is total bullshit.  What this really is, is price regulation of state run monopolies that have been abusing their powers.  Sound familiar to anyone? Oh yeah Jonas, do you mean utilities? Does anybody remember anti-trust activities of the early twentieth century?  Well, it has happened again.  This should bring more competition into the mix which should reduce the cost of insurance in the country.

We still haven’t talked about the overall infrastructure yet and the importance of inserting technology into how we deal with hospitals and how that would reduce cost but this is still a great beginning.  I hope the neo-fascist party takes this in and realizes that our generation is going to try and repeal the royal ass raping that was given to us by the last 30 years of poor governing.

It is still a little hard to believe. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted.  You know Nancy Pelosi, who part of me still hates, did have the smarts to acknowledge that many a time people get stuck in jobs they hate for fear of losing medical coverage.  A guy like me for example who is trying to set up an online retail store still has to work an admin job for health coverage because of a seriously debilitating condition.  Now, if the store takes off and my income improves, I am guaranteed by law to keep my insurance no matter where I go.  AND with the new exchanges that will be implemented over time I will be able to choose different plans and it will be competitively priced.  We are regulating this industry finally! and now we can switch the focus from monopoly based to demand and consumer driven.

I voted for a guy who represents me and my values and he has followed through.  Obama not only puts his place in American History, but he actually accomplished something most politicians don’t in public service, he did the right thing for many people and will actually improve their lives.

Thank you Congress, and thank you Mr. President. I’m almost in a state of shock.

Today’s the Vote! I am watching MSNBC the way a heroine addict watches a spoon heat up.  For a long time I wondered why I lived through all of this treatment and seizures.  If this were to pass, I would not have to worry about losing my insurance which would be fantastic!  One thing no one is talking about though is that the Senate bill requires that health insurance companies change the way they control administrative costs.  This is a huge deal!  And will save billions of dollars and reduce premiums.  I’m sorry America, but the President had to remind you all that we live together in a country and are responsible for one another.  I guess Greed isn’t good anymore…oh wait this won’t stop that at all.  It will just maintain costs in a for profit system… nevermind America keep loving yourself to the point of excess.

I was playing the rhythm on the piano a little today…

Kucinich changed his vote which I consider to be morally upright.  We are looking at a final vote this week.  Obama even went on Fox to tell them what is up.  Watching the video I kept looking to see if it was doctored in some way that is how little I trust that “news” organization.

Financial

RAD has turned out to be one limp dick of a stock.  I had a dream one night that it jumped to 11 dollars for some reason so I have stuck with it.  My thesis was that it was a turnaround story for 2009-2010.  This was in 2008 before the economy crashed.  However, I will stick with it until the end of the year because my thesis has yet to be proved wrong but at the same time I am not exactly kicking butt with it.  HBAN is up, that is cool and it looks like this year they will be profitable.  SIRI is selling for under a dollar and they ARE profitable but their business seems to be somewhat shakey.  I need to do some research.  QTWW is at .65 cents but they raised their guidance so I will pay attention to that. CLNE has jumped to 21 and I liked it at 11.  I still think that stock could fly because of the very small float.

Business

The Fan Club will have its grand re-opening in April.  I have seen the layout for our new website and it looks really good.  We should have at least 150 products up and 300 up by season kickoff.  I have plans for this company I hope to increase our membership to 15,000.

It’s getting harder to wake up no matter how much I sleep.  This always happens when I work over a long period of time.  I fell asleep last night at 7 and woke up at 11.  I then ate some food and went back to sleep around 2:30.  I woke up at 6 in a daze and couldn’t get out of bed until 6:30.  I hate when this happens because it makes me nervous about my job.  If I wake up later, I run the risk of coming into work late and that will get noticed.  And my luck I am now at a job where they do a performance evaluation every 6 months and love to do them.  They have forms and boxes and comments and all kinds of bullshit to annoy the hell out me.  It’s okay though, I am thankful to be employed in this economy.

I woke up in my daze to hear about Natoma Canfield and not only does she now have Leukemia but also no insurance.  I have always considered myself a patriot.  But I think this is a pretty sick country where you have to chose whether to fight for your life or go broke.  Having been in this situation I feel for her.  Although I had an AVM on my brain which thankfully doesn’t come back unlike Cancer.  So Natoma has it worse than I do.  I like Dennis Kucinich a lot.  I think he does stand for the working public and also understands the importance of the middle class.  But what I also hope he remembers is that this Bill is going to be more about precedent than anything else.  Insurance needs to be switched from State run monopolies to demand based competition.  With this Bill, we can begin to make this transition and regulate the industry.  I hope that he votes for the Senate bill not because it is perfect, but to send a message that health care is the most important thing in this world and that Congress will not let special interests and corporations get in the way of the people.

Texas has radically changed its curriculum to include Calvinism as a part of the age of Enlightenment and removed Thomas Jefferson. 

From the New York Times:

“References to Ralph Nader and Ross Perot are proposed to be removed, while Stonewall Jackson, the Confederate general, is to be listed as a role model for effective leadership, and the ideas in Jefferson Davis’s inaugural address are to be laid side by side with Abraham Lincoln’s speeches.”

Why don’t we have another Civil War while you are at it?  I wish Texas would leave, then Mexico could invade and take their land back.  This is beyond stupid and very disappointing.  I think Obama should step in here and prevent this travesty of revisionist history since these books will be spread throughout the country, this could become a Federal problem and should thus be checked at the Federal level.